Today, I have been working on some last minute vacation planning. We decided to just do WI this year as we hadn't taken the kids to Madison or Milwaukee before. As I was looking at things to do and make plans, once again the reality hit me that I do not get to have my littlest love on our adventures with us. It is so painful to try and plan things with the looming storm cloud that threatens to destroy all of the plans that are made. There have been a few times since we lost A

Things We Never Got Over by Lucy Score This book was amazing. The character development was very strong and something that really sucked me into the series. I loved the characters and really enjoyed every minute of reading this. I will rank this a 8.5/10 Things We Hide From the Light by Lucy Score This is another in the same series and again...so good! I will give this one a 8/10. Things We Left Behind by Lucy Score The third book in this series and it was so good. I will giv

So, I decided that I am going to try and update you as to other parts of my life as well. This summer is what I have decided will be my Summer of Reading and I have already read so much. I am not going to share all of my books here right now, but I will be sharing part of the books that I have read and then will slowly share them all. Branded by Saffron A. Kent Branded is a unique romance that involves a young gril writing to an inmate in prison and falling in love with him.

It's been a hard year so far, but why would I expect any different? Every year is a hard year now. I have been trying so hard to be grateful for the time that I had with my girl. However, I don't feel like anytime that is not a full lifetime could ever be enough. Things have been so hard without her here and I constantly wish that she were. Sometimes I see a girl who is about her age and my breathe is taken away imaging what it would be like to be able to see her grow up. She

So, I have just learned to resonate with the fact that I have changed so much since losing my daughter and the me that existed when she was here died along with her. I am a new person, a person who has tried to be better in all areas of life, embracing things like friendship and learning to lean on people after a life that was mostly spent as a loaner. If you are still here with me, thank you friends...you can't possibly know how much your friendship means to me. This year ha

The world keeps going and somehow I do too. I don't feel like the world around me is real some days. Some days I wake up and long to run...

Sweet Adeline, some days it feels like just yesterday that you held my cheeks between your tiny hands and gave me that last kiss the...

Well sweet Adeline, it happened, your birthday came and went and you should be here...now a teenager, but instead you are forever 9. It...

Dear Sweet Adeline, I hope you know how hard I am trying, even though I feel like I am failing in so many ways. I feel so broken and so...

I guess I knew that I would be broken after losing Adeline. From the moment they looked at me with tears in their eyes and said I'm...

Today the song Turn! Turn! Turn! by the Byrds has been on repeat in my head. I am feeling so connected and grounded lately which is not...

The new year used to signify new beginnings, things I wanted to change and ways that I felt that I could be a better version of me. I...

Three years....how has it been three years since I last heard you tell me you loved me and that you were the luckiest little girl in the...

I am realizing that the holidays will forever be a perpetual struggle for me. I am so sad right now and I just can't shake the feeling...

As I sit here tonight on the eve of what should be a celebration of your 12th birthday, I feel heartbroken and anxious and full of a...

The past few weeks have been busy. Until last night, Shane and I had not slept in the same location in a week. It was crazy! The waves of...

I feel like I just have so much to say about grief and life after losing my little love. Not a day goes by where I do not feel such...

Every day since the day that I was told that Adeline was no longer with us has been a storm in some way or another. I will never forget...

Lately, I have been thinking a lot about how I am a grieving mother. Forever, for the rest of my life, I will always have I am a grieving...